My last nite was full of shock and emotion feeling.Why I must feel like that?huh...dunnoe~when I feel sad,I ll go in front of the mirror and smile as long as possible.Maybe this is crazy,but this is the only way for me to trigger a positive mind.
To me,this is a heavy burden to be carry.All of this while,just playing around without knowing the effect later.Im making my own heart feel more pain when i wrote this.This is a test for me.2 years is not a short period.Anything may happen.Maybe Allah want to test my consistency in doing something.
Waiting is the most painful moment.If only I can get the time machine and travel to the end of this 2 years,that will be the craziest thing ever.What is the objective im writing this?To express my feeling which looks like in very unstable condition.Argh! Why did I agree for that stupid agreement last nite??Is it will be worthy if I could follow the conditions?No body can ensure this thing.Just a blank agreement.Now Im trying to collect all my strengths and just believe to Allah's promise."U ll never get a task Unless U are capable enough to get through of it"
May Allah Bless Us~2 years~Ameen~